So, here I am, up late at night when I should be sleeping. I have to be somewhere early in the morning. I know I am going to regret it when I have to leave here at 700a. So I decided to blog a little. Usually I watch Forensic Files on TruTV, until I fall asleep. I would like to take a sleep aid, but I am afraid it will overstay its welcome, and keep me tired when I am supposed to be awake. I have this weird feeling that keeps me awake until my body is so tired that I just have to fall asleep. I wish it wasn't like this. When I was a kid my bedtime was 830p, and I seemed to have no problem falling asleep then. When I was in the Army, I had no choice! lol But now that I have free reign over my sleeping habits, everything has gone haywire. I just got finished with my Spring semester in college, and passed one class and failed the other. I suspect I have the adult form of ADHD. I heard it is unwise for one to self diagnose themselves, so I will talk to my doctor about this possible issue. If that is the case, how am I going to tell him that I have problems sleeping, and expect to get an amphetamine type medication for ADHD? Something has got to give. Please don't let it be my sanity! Maybe I need to have a little more faith in God. I have many weaknesses. I am comforted, however, by scripture that declares in our weakness, he is strong.
Today, my little one told me, "Daddy, I love you forever, and ever, and ever, and ever, and ever.!" To her, I am the most important and loved daddy in the whole world. I certainly don't want to let her down. It's just so difficult sometimes to live up to what I think her daddy should be. (in my mind) But it is comforting to know that she is probably simply happy with me being just me. And I love her forever and ever. She has my love till the day I die, and even after that. She is growing up so fast. Before I know it, i'll be walking her down the aisle, giving her butterfly kisses. It is so nice to love and be loved.
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