That proverbial "naked feeling"

I have been stripped of my privacy by my ex girlfriend. She decided to look at all the pictures on my phone, and saw pictures of girls that she thought was questionable. Now she thinks I am untouchable. As if she is so pristine. I feel stripped of any feeling of privacy. Sometimes I want to slap her in the face, but since I don't hit women, I feel, however, she is one of the women that would deserve such a physical reminder that you just don't pry into peoples' business. What a pig. When I visited the cematary where my grandmother is buried, I stumbled across one man's gravestone that said, " Only God can judge me". Is that a statment of defience, or a humble, but bold and assertive statement? If it is the latter, than I want that as my epitath. I will be the first to confirm that I am NOT perfect. This just confirms for me for the time being that ALL women are not to be trusted, and that is an understatement.

Good vs Evil

It has been 4 months since my last post. I have had progressions, and I have had regressions. I had moved in with my girlfriend, who soon became my ex for a second time. Isn't the whole point to learn from your mistakes? I feel I have wasted valuable time... again. Man this sucks. She ended up breaking my computer and spitting in my face, and if I didn't learn before, I learned then. It wasn't going to work. I moved out, and was able to land a job working at the front desk at a local hotel. The owner said he would give me a good rate until I could get an apartment, so I moved in to the property. I have to admit that I am very happy now. No arguing, no more spitting in the face, no more accusations of cheating. I am free to live my life. Living at your work can have its drawbacks. They call you for every little thing. On the flipside, I have met some very interesting people. I met an adult entertainer from Las Vegas, who happens to have a perfect body. I admit I have been obsessed with her company to the point where I have neglected a lot of my priorities, and this could threaten the very liberty I enjoy. I guess I have to realize that I should not interrupt my life priorities for anyone. I am missing my daughter immensely, and I have put a lot on hold for this "Vegas girl" because I enjoy being seen in public with her. As a result of this girl in my life, I have had no regrets being away from my ex. I am starting to hang out with people of questionable character, and right now I could really use some good advice. It seems that I am getting it, and ignoring it. Trying to keep my daughter in mind is influencing me and my decisions. It's like a battle between good and evil. The enticements of this lifestyle are overwhelming. I feel weak. My facade of being a a person of good moral character is starting to crumble. I ask God for his help, but he gives me free will, and ultimately I have to make this decision.