It has been 4 months since my last post. I have had progressions, and I have had regressions. I had moved in with my girlfriend, who soon became my ex for a second time. Isn't the whole point to learn from your mistakes? I feel I have wasted valuable time... again. Man this sucks. She ended up breaking my computer and spitting in my face, and if I didn't learn before, I learned then. It wasn't going to work. I moved out, and was able to land a job working at the front desk at a local hotel. The owner said he would give me a good rate until I could get an apartment, so I moved in to the property. I have to admit that I am very happy now. No arguing, no more spitting in the face, no more accusations of cheating. I am free to live my life. Living at your work can have its drawbacks. They call you for every little thing. On the flipside, I have met some very interesting people. I met an adult entertainer from Las Vegas, who happens to have a perfect body. I admit I have been obsessed with her company to the point where I have neglected a lot of my priorities, and this could threaten the very liberty I enjoy. I guess I have to realize that I should not interrupt my life priorities for anyone. I am missing my daughter immensely, and I have put a lot on hold for this "Vegas girl" because I enjoy being seen in public with her. As a result of this girl in my life, I have had no regrets being away from my ex. I am starting to hang out with people of questionable character, and right now I could really use some good advice. It seems that I am getting it, and ignoring it. Trying to keep my daughter in mind is influencing me and my decisions. It's like a battle between good and evil. The enticements of this lifestyle are overwhelming. I feel weak. My facade of being a a person of good moral character is starting to crumble. I ask God for his help, but he gives me free will, and ultimately I have to make this decision.
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